"I don't Know!? I don't Know!?" What mother doesn't have new story sitting on the edge of her tongue eager to share with anyone that asks, I thought to myself. I was honestly stumped. "He is just all around the cutest, most loving little boy (to me), everything he says and does is so sweet to watch." I managed to say, but I felt awful for letting down a friend 's expectations of hearing an entertaining toddler story and worried about my lack of really, any to share. Then, I started talking truthfully, and divulging that every day He teaches me something, and that most amazingly, I've seen more of a reflection of myself in my two year old than some days in my own mirror.
It was a beautiful , warm winter South Carolina day and I decided to take Kelly to the River Walk. He loves the river walk; playing at the playground, meeting new friends, walking along the river and looking for boats, even getting an occasional ice cream. "Mama! Sit! Mama Sit! Sit!" Kelly demanded I join him on the slide and we would race down together, side by side, arms stretched over head.."Wooohooooo! Kell! give me a high five, that was super fun!" Kell held out the palm of his chubby little hand to meet mine and looked at me with a scrunched up nose and cheshire grin before running around to climb the stairs to the top again. It was a perfect marriage of fun, fearlessness, and firm redirection when he would come to close to the edge. The edge being anything that felt to uncomfortable for mommy to allow him to try but most certain daddy would encourage.
Kell, let's go walk on the river walk and see if there are any boats in the water! I said excitedly , to encourage him to follow me a way from the slides that went "roun an roun an roun" and swings that went "up! high! mama! up! " Kelly ran out of the gate like a race horse and down the path towards the river. I gently placed my hand on his soft, blond curls to guide him along, when all of a sudden he ran , awkwardly as a two year old pamper bottom would, towards the river and marina. He was distracted by a boat with a large party on it that was getting ready to head down the river. "Kell!" I grabbed him, arms around his trunk, legs dangling, kissed his chubby cheek and said "Kell! we can't go down there, we could fall in the water! Stay on the path son, we can see more boats ahead!" I took a hold of his hand and tried to encourage him with all my enthusiasm to look ahead, follow me along the river walk , because we would see more boats, and have a larger area to run and play in. Kelly snatched that little hand right from mine and ran, awkwardly, in circles, weaving back and forth and tumbling towards the waters edge towards the large boat that captivated his attention. "Kelly Louis! If you stay....." Then, a quiet gasp, I inhaled my next words, a large smile painted across my face, and I exhaled laughter....
Again, I saw myself in my two year old little boy more clearer than the image in the mirror that morning.
God made me laugh in a moment of frustration with my son.
"Rachel, stay on the path, your getting distracted by things you see and that seem so tangible but if you stay on the path, I will lovingly guide you where I want you to go."
Kelly couldn't see the big picture, he couldn't see what I could see, that just ahead there was a better place for us together, to see the boats, to play and more to discover. He became distracted, pulled away, turned off the path and headed towards dangerous territory. As much as I tried to get him to understand, to show him or firmly say if you don't follow me, we will leave...Kelly was determined he new what was best.
Consequently, Kelly didn't make it down the river walk that afternoon (although he had plenty of trips before), where more was waiting for him to rediscover. We left with with throwing a temper tantrum. I do know, however, Kelly although only two, will listen next time, and make it all the way down the river walk as he did not like the consequence of leaving early for not listening.
Sometimes we get in God's way by trying to do things our way. We are so narrow minded and only see what is in our immediate future and easily distracted. Stay on His path, trusting that his vision for us has an incomprehensible greater joy and reward than anything we could imagine for ourselves.
So powerful is a such a little soul to have had God use him as a vehicle to speak through, before he himself has a vocabulary to communicate.
I love my Kelly and these stories he has allowed me to share.
Proverbs 3: 11-12 My son, do not despise the Lord's discipline or be weary of his reproof, for the Lord reproves him whom he loves, as a father the son in whom he delights.
Psalm 16:11 You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
|LET ME GO!!|
|I WANT IT MY WAY!!|